coming away from the mourge i was really confussed.trying too take it all in my feelings,my reaction ur death unsure hw i handled it i spoke too u i just wanted too get u back too bath so i cud spend sometime with u before i had to say goodbye 4eva this took too long!! days infact and by the time u came home i seen u on the thursday u didnt get back till the weds following week then u were so badly ditireated u had too goe into qwrantin and be decotaminated.toxicated this really hurt u were being treated like a disese u r my baby i wanted too say goodbye they wanted too just seal ur coffin for everyones saftey i sed no they had a technicion work hours on u too try stop ur body from rotting anymore i was adiment i was going too see u they sed i would have too sign disclaimer forms..no-one cud change my mind. i was broken but adiment they sed i wud have too wear a mask n gloves and because u were in such a bad u were bandaged from head too toe..and i did goe against everyone i wudnt be able too handle the sight and it wud effect the rest of my life...so i asked u i sed baby if ur body is really dat bad u gotta change my mind...so i woke up n got the phone call they sed they treatment didnt work n u were even worse i was nw in too minds n made a life changing desision,dat they shud just seal ur coffin babe,and ive never and i belive u answered me coz ive never looked back i didnt want to destroy all memories and ur beautiful face! everynite babe cried into ur top. and then i had too take it all in and arrange ur funeral xxxx